seeing the sunrise with a friend (2)

Well, howdy hoo, the wind cuts through my shirt, saying "awake! awake and be free!" but, oh, silly me, i'm just watching a movie and its the character on screen being freed yet still can't jump through that big window into my world because this is MY world, i have to protect it, ya know? Johnny B Goode, you play so well, sing me a song, won't you? man, look at the sun behind that selfish sonofabitch cloud that is hiding all the life-light for himself, but oh man are we lucky clouds can't catch on fire cause if they did we would all be dead and then where would we be, shit out of luck that is where, you crazy poet, and i look over to my dear friend whose zipper is stuck and she is afraid to touch the sand WHOA that star is SO close to earth, how can we sit here and watch it watching us, the big eye of God reflecting on the waves why aren't we scared of that thing whether it is omniscient and piercing or not, ya know? Judge me not, sol, for i am simply an imprint of experience, genetics, and society, ya know, chocolate milk and fashion magazines and the pressure to play the dating game, well i say no! to all that, i say no! reality, i say no! fatigue, becuase we all know it isn't real anyways, except that the sun looks so beautiful on the water ho can i sit here LIVING, whether that is real or not (if it is real i shouldn't be able to take it, it's too overwhelming, if it isn't real, that is the saddest thing i have ever heard and why don't i just die right now in the sand and let the seagulls eat my eyeballs, man, cause fuck! reality is so intense, ya know, can nonexistence be this intense, well, let's hope not, baby, let's hope not), either way I should be exploding right now ahhh explosion the great destructive qualifier, it's better than riding with the windows down along A1A and feeling tingly all over with the sun shining on the side of your face, tingly mmm tingly like you are standing under an overhang on the side of your favorite cafe in historic downtown americana in a rainstorm with a girl, getting up the nerve to walk out to your car, and your whole body is shivering with how great it would be to grab her and smooch on the lips {ssssmack!} then stare at her and whisper, "this is as good as it gets, baby, all we have now are dreams," mmmm girls' lips oh man the sun is really dancing on the waves now, it's the most beautiful thing i have ever seen, this beach, it's a good thing i am cold and hungru or else this would just be too much, and then all of a sudden i realize how beautiful and ephemeral i and this sunrise are and suddenly BOOM!